When it’s hard for you child, even if you have to keep your head down, go ahead. Family can be your worst enemy many times and can do you a lot of harm. You must go forward, crawl if needed, like a worm crawls if needed, wounded, tired, exhausted, just cross the finish line.
Life is not rosy, it’s not only rosy, and it seems we can’t enjoy it like we used to. The world is crying in the streetcars and I am with them. They have no money, it’s hard for them, there are no more pure feelings, like cold water from a mountain spring. The world will surely hit you if possible. Let them! Make your way in life!
Keep going is all I can say! Regardless of everything, family, friends who are rude or who only pay attention to you when they have something to gain, older or younger brothers or sisters who slap you, spit on you like Christ, who were still missing to crucify you, the rest they did it all to you. You were about to get nailed. They beat you, slapped you, spat on you, cursed you, and they had no mercy. They were still enjoying what you were enduring.
But you?…You weren’t like that…after you got back on your feet you started to love everyone. To forgive everyone, because that’s who you are!!! No one told you…sorry! You forgave because YOU wanted to!!! But I know that when it’s your time, and I think it will be, you’ll squish them all like bugs, because that’s what YOU want. The lucky ones will die, you will feel sorry for those who were once your friends and kill them! But woe to those for whom you will not wish death, because they will pray to have it!
May God keep you safe and under the wings of the protective angels may you always dwell! I know you will succeed, I believe you will without fail! Everything will be completely different then. Because your power is to rule, not thousands, not armies, but the world!